Thursday, February 10, 2011

My Prayer Walk Through Thick And Thin

Yes your Majesty Honour and Glory to you forever and ever !!! Amen

Madam Anastasia
My Prayer Walk Through Thick And Thin

Through the years, God taught me many things. I remember always wanting to pray, but when I started attending prayer meetings, I found myself absolutely tongue tied, and very nervous for fear that someone would ask me to pray out loud. In fact, I was asked to pray many times and because of the Lord, I made it through.
I didn’t know how to wait upon the Holy Spirit. I didn’t realize that He wanted to lead and direct me not only in my everyday life, but also in my prayer life. I didn’t recognize His voice when He was speaking to me. I later learned that some of my thoughts were, in fact, the voice of the Holy Spirit, and not just my own. I had never known that way of praying before. All I knew and understood was the memorized prayers that I had learned when I was very young. I became very frustrated. There were times when I would start to pray and right in the middle of my prayer I would totally lose my trend of what was in my heart to pray and was unable to finish. I had no alternative but to stop right in the middle of the sentence and say, "I can’t go on because I have this block." That was very embarrassing and frustrating for me. Needless to say, if I continued to take part in these meetings, things would have to change. I knew that I needed to deal with pride and overcome the fear of man, intimidation, inferiority, and more.

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My constant question to myself was, “Why are you at these prayer meetings when you’re so nervous and having such a hard time of it?" I know now that I was there at those meetings because it was God that had me there. Like everyone else, I had to start from the first step, before I could go to the next. It’s like our own natural growth in life. A baby cannot grow up to become an adult in the same day. It’s always a process. Isaiah 28:10 says it this way, "For precept must be upon precept, line upon line, here a little and there a little." We all must be patient and wait upon the Lord. He has the right timing for everything.
Well, this went on week after week. But amazingly, as the days drew closer to the time of each meeting,excitement would start to well up in me. One day as I sat at my dressing table getting ready for the meeting, I heard the Lord speak to me and tell me to read Psalms 32:8. My Bible was lying on the dressing table right next to me so I immediately opened it to that particular scripture that He had told me read. I was amazed at what it said, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you shall go and I will guide you with My eye." The anointing of that Word reached the depths of my heart and I felt the rush of joy fill my whole being. It was electrifying to say the least. God is so faithful. He knew that I needed that encouragement and He gave it to me at the very right time.

Madam Anastasia

It’s obvious that the enemy did not want me to attend these meetings, but by God’s grace and only by His grace, I finally broke through. However, this was not an overnight victory for me. Daily, I had to give God more of my time, I had to be patient with myself and also with the Lord as well. Discipline in every way was important. The Lord said, "Old things are passed away and now it was time to go on to the new." I had to be willing. I knew that the Lord’s way was the best and highest way. At times, I would get very tired; however, so to speak, I had to keep on rowing my boat, keeping focused on my destination. I was bound and determined, with God’s help, that I would get to the other side where He had told me to go. In spite of the fierce winds and the high waves that had threatened to capsize my boat, I kept on. I knew that Jesus was in the boat with me and He would keep me safe and protected from all harm. Even today these storms continue, not only for me, but for all those who choose to follow the Lord. We must stay focused and keep rowing. The more we row, the more spiritual muscles we develop. And the more we row, the more we grow.